Day 69....where did that waggon go??

Right,

I have 10 minutes to up-date you so will do in in bullet points. Paul Mort texted me last night to remind me that I hadn't done this for ages (thanks Paul!!!) and caught me tucking into a passion fruit Creme Brulee at my Christmas meal. So.....

• Last week was emotionally awful....two bereavements, friends in emotional strife, major work being done to my kitchen, another friend rushed into hospital with life-threatening issues
• I fell off the waggon basically. Initially with a huge pork and stuffing sarnie, a bag of crisps and a chocolate eclair and then with 4 slices of sponge cake on Monday and a tier of Milk Tray chocs on Tuesday
• We are talking engorgement here.....
• After pouring my heart out to Dax and Paul, I realised emotional eating was getting me nowhere and no going to bring my friend back
• I went out for lunch and dinner yesterday and did ok. The only thing I ate that was slightly suspect was the creme brulee, which I enjoyed very much
• Exercise has been patchy.
• I lied there, it has not really happened. I feel achy and lack lustre and am not really getting there, though managing once a day
• I am now doing 'eat stop eat' as recommended by Dax. I feel that this two-day per week fast could be right up my street as when I am good I am very very good.....and focussed too
• I have not eaten since last night and am feeling a bit muddled (not sleeping well though) and strange, and hungry....though coping somehow.
• I feel I can do this
• The ship is turning slowly, but it is turning.........
• No significant weight gain strangely........

So, the plan

• Revisit goals asap and stop munching stuff
• Brave a work out on a seriously empty tummy
• Try this two day a week fast during Christmas and eat as healthily as possible
• Use the Christmas break as space to get back on track with work outs- it is amazing how quicly you seize up when you lose that momentum
• Stop moaning and get on with it- though give myself permission to enjoy life
• Remember to celebrate successes- I bumped into a former student yesterday who was amazed at how much better I look after 2 years. She said '10 years younger and cooler' ....bless!!!

That's all for now. Now, where did that waggon go??!!

xxx Jo