Hi again,Good day today. Am not going to rant on much tonight, but I did my IMT twice, went for a cuppa with a mate, treated Alex to one of my special baltis with my own gluten free Naan breads, got my work done, got my provisions and ate like an angel. Portion size this evening not brilliant....I think I need to cut down on the size of the stew/balti/tagine I make because I perhaps over-compensate when not serving with rice or a side.....will muse over that over night.
I did the IMT this evening unaccompanied by footage. It went ok...I am getting better. Need to slow down and do like 'one elephant, two elephant, three elephant' etc....am doing that a bit but could get better. Sometimes I lose the 'mastery' when I start counting. Evidently, there is not much space inside this cluttered head.
Just wanted to report that saying 'no' to things seems easy because of my bigger goals. It is like an inner voice has appeared. Is it my reticular activating system? There is certainly something shoring me up. It says a range of things, like 'stop fannying around and get on with your work' and 'it is challenging but not impossible'.
Just to make it clear before I sign off for the night that this is an inner voice and I don't actually hear in in my ears or enter into open dialogue with it in busy shopping centres.....the caffeine withdrawal hasn't driven me that mad......yet!!!
Oh!! One more thing....detox headache has gone.....yay!!
xxx Jo
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